难道我没有权利说我不愿意?

Got this phrase from 1 of the songs that i listened to recently. Anyway, this phrase is dedicated to 秋 haha.. with regards to her 2nd last blog entry about going to some symposium & having to miss out on joining her friends for a hokkaido trip. How many times we would love to use this phrase"难道我没有权利说我不愿意?" to say NO & just go for whatever things that we want to do. But I guess responsible people like 秋 & I (ermhmm), we have to swallow all these crap & forego part of our leisure time with friends just to perform well in our work, or to put it in better perspective- to be responsible & finish whatever crap we start with or forced to start with. No one to prove to but ourselves. I guess cos "we are still inexperienced" as what the "experienced" people phrase it, the power to say No equates to Zero.

But there's a limit to the crap & nonsense that each person can take. So people out there!! Please bear in mind & be FREAKING REASONABLE, even if you are a client or a boss or whatever!!! Treat people with respect!!! *&^%$#@!!!!

Need to get what happened today off my chest by blogging here...it really got me very fed up & also got me thinking if staying on was a mistake. Today on a wonderful Easter Sunday, I was requested to go & meet this particular unreasonable client of mine to listen to her nag at me for not doing my work. Was not feeling well, so off my hp & slept thru till this afternoon at 12pm. When i on my hp, i received a calleralert with this client's no. calling me 3 times & i was unreachable. Sensed something bad brewing... still... life goes on... a few mins later i received an sms frm this client & she asked if i was meeting her in the afternoon & asked me abt something else. I responded to say i'll be there & told her that i understood she'll be arranging some of her neighbours to meet me to sign the documents as well. The next thing i know..my boss called me! THIS FREAKING CLIENT ACTUALLY CALLED MY BOSS TO COMPLAIN ABT ME NOT DOING MY WORK!!!!! wth!!! She was the one who wanted to arrange this meeting & get others to meet me then not able to & push the blame to me. Fortunately, my boss was well aware of what's going on & called to warn me to be careful.

Anyway, this incident got me thinking..is this job suitable for me? I mean..is like i face all these difficult clients almost everyday & i cant seem to handle them well. Being in this job for like almost 1 1/2 years, i am still struggling with them & they form the majority of my time having to face them. Maybe this job aint suitable to me after all? Even if i do like this job, i wont be able to perform, i'll still not be successful in my job....sigh... time to move on? But before that...

hey when will that freaking case end so that i can get my comm as planned in June???!!!